Busy

Title sums up the situation. I have to…

1. Do the National Day cloth montage
2. Study extra hard for MSA and Promotion Exams
3. Settle all the logistics for the contributors Christian Mission Week
4. Arrange venues for rehearsals for CMW
5. Design SFC T-shirt
6. Go for OCIP camp 23rd and 24th July

Most of the above need to be done before the end of July. Things are going to get HECTIC, and I can tell I’m starting to get impatient. I just cursed my laptop viciously after it took 5 minutes to load up Word. Sigh…gone were the days when computers were low-tech enough that physical violence was enough to dispel most technical issues.
Fortunately, the stupid-statement saga seems to be resolving itself pretty nicely, so I’m hoping that as time goes by, the miraculous thing called selective amnesia will cause everyone to forget it ever happened, thus sparing me future embarrassment. But either way, that’s one issue dealt with, and 6 new ones to handle. I wish myself lots of luck.
WPCW told me that I really judged my friends and classmates very harshly. I supposed its true. They do things I don’t agree with, like not singing the national anthem, having early BGR etc. But I try not to tell them off or make them change. I’m more than aware that my worldview and values are seldom the same as my peers, so instead of trying to impose them on others, I just let them know what I feel. After that, you’re free to make your own choices and learn things your own way. Of course though, if I truly care for somebody, I should be trying to correct him, and not just shrugging my arms, standing aside and helplessly voicing disapproval. But it more often than not strains the relationship so badly that advice is simply ignored or vehemently rejected, which is why I don’t do so. Hahaha, if measured by that yardstick, I guess I don’t really give a hoot about most of my friends then. How ironic.
SFC’s leadership handover is drawing close, and the impression that the 2 leading actresses are going to get the top 2 posts is getting ever stronger. They’ve been handed big responsibilities since CU Camp, and now they’re pretty much in charged of Open House and CMW. I wish them good luck, because they’ll not just be inheriting a CCA, but the responsibility of the entire school’s spiritual health. For me, I’ll be taking up saikang duties again. Like the first 3 lines in The Who’s Baba O’riley, “Out there in the fields, I fight for my meals. I get my back into my living.” I’ll just focus on getting things done, quietly and efficiently, leaving the envisioning and theme-making to those who are called to. Too strong a sense of practicality, not enough spirit, me.
Still, get an impression that the seniors think I’m immature and flippant. Sigh, spent too much time with Xiangan, Shane and Samuel. Which is why I’m dedicating a lot into the T-shirt and Logistic Head duties. I need to show my dead cold serious side. For goodness sakes, I didn’t make it to Staff Sergeant by talking nonsense the whole bleeding day.

Score 2 points for narcissism.